Friday, August 22, 2008

new measurments

OK here are my new #'s

Arms: 12.5
Thigh: 26
Waist: 34
Belly: 40
Bust: 39.5
Hips: 45

I NEED A FILL

I thought I would never say it again, "I NEED A FILL"... I love to eat, but I don't want to put on what I have taken off!!
So like I said in my last entry, I had a bit taken out... It has been wonderful, I feel great! I have energy and I love to drink my water!! I did not realize how much I missed water!! goodness!!!

I can eat anything (thats not good!) I Think I need about half of what I had taken out, put back in... I want restriction, and I don't have that right now :(....

anyways.. I better be good these next 3 weeks!

Monday, August 18, 2008

Crazy Growling noise!! AHHHH

Ok, so I hope that I don't babble on here and make no sense but oh well here is a little update!

So a couple of weeks ago I started having problems again with not being able to keep much down without it coming back up!!! It started to get pretty miserable!!! and I mean Miserable!! I was like, why in the world would anyone want to do this to them self's, this is so stupid!! I was reading a lot on lap-band talk and looking at what most people eat.. well I would eat a few bits, and I mean a FEW bits of something and be totally satisfied!! I had come to find out that most people were able to eat a lot more than I could... but I though oh well, Im loosing weight!!! but loosing weight by being bulimic is not the way to go!... Then on Thursday I started to have pain in the kidneys.. So I thought I had a kidney infection... Friday I went to the hospital and after a 3 hour wait in the waiting room, I find out that I am dehydrated, and have a kidney infection as well as a possible hernia.. the doctor did a CT scan and said that It looks like I had a hernia.. (Dr. Malley said that if they don't know what they are looking at then the pouch from my lap band looks like a hernia) but I won't believe the hernia part....
Anywho.. I went and saw Dr. Malley today for my scheduled visit and I said "take it out" meaning all the fluid!! I want to eat!!! I have lost 67lbs and think that I am doing pretty good!!! But I still want to eat!! so I need to weigh the options!! I went into the office thinking I had 0.75cc in my band because I thought I had been keeping track... well I was not aware that Dr. malley put 5cc in my band during surgery (he normally does not do that) he said that my band was loose enough in surgery that he could fill it up then to keep it restricted.. hmmmmm no wonder I have been sick!!!! So we talked about it and he took 1/2 of what I had in, out.. so that should leave me with 3cc... It was funny because he chuckled when he said well you have almost 6cc in your band.. I screamed, "take some out"!!!!! well I feel much better to know that i had a lot in there and that I did not have just 0.75cc.. because I was thinking how am I this restricted with just 0.75cc this is horrible!! will I ever be able to eat?
SO GUESS WHAT???? my stomach growled for the first time a few minutes ago... it scared me!!! I was like, what in the world? I am not sure if I like that or not.... I am getting ready to eat lunch so we will see how that goes!!!

Sunday, August 17, 2008

all my clothes are sloppy!!! :)

This shirt is huge now.. looks sloppy on me.. but oh well, it shows progress

Monday, August 4, 2008

Oh... I need to post something!

HELLO!

Dang.. I feel soo good! 190.0 today!!! I am very happy with myself right now... The only thing that I need to kick my ass about is, not going to the gym like I should..
I have not weighed 190 since 2002... and I was struggling then... I was 200 by the time I was done with Nursing school.. I can no longer wear XL size scrubs.. they look soo ridiculous on me.. I am wearing L's comfortably.. I bet I could wear M within the next few months.. that will be a first ever!! then I can share with my friend!! YEAH!!! I am going to bag up all my XL and take them to life uniform and trade them in for 20% off my purchase!!

My clothes are falling off of me!! This weekend, I could not find a pair of jeans that fit my butt, not because my butt was too big, but the jeans were toooooo big in the butt.. that is also a first!! I always had a problem with jeans being toooo tight in the butt... its kinda sad! I miss my butt!! hehe

Well there is a little update about me!! I will be back later!

I need to post new pics! I guess I will get around to doing that sometime soon, when Im not lazy!